for all my fRensz.....

actualli this posting is really for my frens....esp Shirl, Est., Sharon, Ailing... Jo, Pat, Lee2, G, etc etc etc, Em, P, Wei,.....Run, esp NYGH frens V and Sf too, and njcC05 bunch.

i know i havent been able to really meet up and spend QUALITY time wif u all...
much as i hv tried..i actually am v pressed at all sides and cannt meet tat often; dun know how to explain
Really really wana say SORRy.

Sorry, coz i am so selfish, made frenship like so "diluted" over the mths, yrs...now
and so hard to devote myself to u fully / more than now.
i cannt meet the usual frens one-to-one too....but doing the gatherings in groups if possible.

It is a "tearing apart feeling" whenever i reach hm after meeting u all as i feel it is so "diluted" and not a in-depth frenship... and the feeling of Ooooo when i hv to say no, cant, got sthg. Actually i do fall ill and coz i duno how at times to handle....many r envious of me having so many frens, but little or nil do they know i hv to prioritise a lot, "as in personal time/space sacrifice" [nt tat i hate it, but sometimes it does get into me-negative].

HowEver, i realise i cant be god, cant be everywhere at everytime wif everyone, so i say sorry and move on (as in the depth element). I am spread quite thinly i know.

i know frenships are not jus abt meeting (which is impt too). I know i will lose few or many of you. esp. u all move on too.

THANKS TO ALL OF YOU FOR STILL REGARDING ME AS A FREN and for Being There and PArt of my Life.....