Me, me, me

I suddenly hv this realisation and i decided to pen it down asap, at Blogspot....haha, wanted to do it on Friendster. But not able to do it rite now.

i am of a marriageable age, and also an age to hv a family. =0) decided it is time to review my love life...hmmm, i am eligible and attractive, but why aren't there suitors/ a boyfriend in sight ?

love is a grey area for me. i tot it deludes me..... maybe now, next time, forever....
then, i realised, ah maybe i really am hiding fr LOve, firstly, becoz i myself cannot love myself, secondly, i cannot love a person who does not "meet my expectations" and thirdly, i fear to "expose" who i really am.

Perhaps the "attitude" i hv towards love is - not let myself be hurt, thus love can wait . =0)
or perhaps, ....perhaps.... perhaps....
THEN, the realisation, i realise i hv nt been able to present myself just as i am !
AND thus, usu. the first impression fades away and guys dun really get interested as they dun get to see "ME" -- i.e. real me.

Akan Datang.